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Lost
Posted by Unknown , December 15, 2011 10:45 PM
More often than not, things seems to be in limbo of what's suppose to happen. As Im writing this post, in a corner of a cafe out looking bars full of drunkards intoxicated with euphoria, I can't help reflect my life for the past year. Where nostalgic nights masquerades pain of longginess and contentment of what once was simple. As of this moment, only a brink of sanity prevents me from running away from everything. One moment Im in seventh heaven and next thing I know, I feel as if hell's dragging me down. If only I could see that path again, that ambitious side of who I am that constantly strives to succeed and fight, but as I unmask myself writing this. A moment of each motivation and push I give myself, a part of me says "damn I need a break". I put a bar of success and expectations in my life to move forward and be better, but deep inside I'm already committing suicide. So tired proving myself and people wrong, a constant battle for better, as if contentment eludes reality and turns into illusions to convince myself that the end of the line is worth all pain.
Hope
The only word that I trust.. That would save me from myself. Hope for someone to hold me, hope for my parents to be proud of me, hope for grace, and hope for something meaningful to live for.
