Lost

Posted by Unknown , December 15, 2011 10:45 PM

More often than not, things seems to be in limbo of what's suppose to happen. As Im writing this post, in a corner of a cafe out looking bars full of drunkards intoxicated with euphoria, I can't help reflect my life for the past year. Where nostalgic nights masquerades pain of longginess and contentment of what once was simple. As of this moment, only a brink of sanity prevents me from running away from everything. One moment Im in seventh heaven and next thing I know, I feel as if hell's dragging me down. If only I could see that path again, that ambitious side of who I am that constantly strives to succeed and fight, but as I unmask myself writing this. A moment of each motivation and push I give myself, a part of me says "damn I need a break". I put a bar of success and expectations in my life to move forward and be better, but deep inside I'm already committing suicide. So tired proving myself and people wrong, a constant battle for better, as if contentment eludes reality and turns into illusions to convince myself that the end of the line is worth all pain.

Hope

The only word that I trust.. That would save me from myself. Hope for someone to hold me, hope for my parents to be proud of me, hope for grace, and hope for something meaningful to live for.

2 Response to "Lost"

Chubby Singson Says:

Every time I find myself alone, I also tend to evaluate my life and see how I have gone so far and as much as I hate to admit it but there are times when I also feel that the things I did in the past to be better weren't enough but the good side about being able to reflect is we get to realize what we should do or at least what we think we should do but at least we're thinking of ways to improve our lives for ourselves and for the people we love than to let things happen as they are.

I tend to feel lost sometimes as I tread on this road called life but eventually I always find a way to get back on track and I completely believe you'll find the right path as well. Like what you've said, there's hope. And sometimes, hope is the only light in darkness.

Good luck and take care always. : )

December 30, 2011 at 8:12 PM
Unknown Says:

Hi Erwin, I appreciate you commenting on my note. During these days, we might be caught up with our daily activities but what truly matters is the time we go to bed or even when we are alone. That realization you said, that time where we either visualize or reminisce our future and past. We have loads of chances to make this life a great one, let's start today?!? Thank u Erwin! May God bless you more and take care too.

Ending.. (Sam) with a SMILE :)

January 7, 2012 at 5:02 PM

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