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My greatest blessing, a new beginning
Posted by Unknown , February 8, 2013 11:56 PM
"Being a young mom means i met you a little early, but it also means i get to love you a little longer. They said that my life ended when I decided to keep you, but it has just begun. You didn't take away my future, but gave me a better one."
At first it was a shock, especially for myself, i had sudden images of a different path i meant to go to, the thought of losing so much of my single independent life. I started to cry. Until i realize these arms that wrapped around me while i wept to let go, it was him, the father of my child, the person that helped my realize one important thing, his first few words lingered in my unconscious mind as i aimlessly still wonder what would happen next. I can't thank him enough for saying it.. "Never make baby feel like he/she's a burden, but a blessing"
I felt that God gave me this gift because i had an overflowing love and affection to give, I understand his message now. I undoubtedly knew that my friends would be happy for me, enough to trust the fact that my life has become better, that i am strong enough to be the best parent that i could be, and that i have the best partner to be the father of my baby. My friends knew well enough that though i may have lost a few, but i have gained a lot more. A bigger family between friends and my own, a blessing nonetheless than what others may have thought.
It hurts me much more until now to see that my very own family (except my parents) would pity me. That they would feel sorry for me, that i can never be happy and successful on my own now. Because of having a child means not being able to travel, to stop enjoying and will have problems with my career? I do know more than anyone the sacrifices i have to make once i have my own family, but isn't that why we continue to live? To stop being selfish and start caring for something bigger than myself, i never said its gonna be easy, but i know that it would be worth it.
I shed tears of happiness and excitement now. This new beginning is going to give me a bigger meaning to fight harder, strive higher and stand taller. Living here in Hong Kong has always felt like i was an outcast in my family, but now i have my own. I don't need to prove anything or to fear what others has to say. It doesn't matter now, I saw people that was happy for me and i thank God. I can't thank God enough for my parents that makes me laugh whenever i feel sad, my friends that would fly from different parts of the world just to support me, and my boyfriend that i so dearly love that gives me strength through all this, and I can't wait to see my little angel that brought happiness and love to my once hollow life.
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