Real-Sarino Wedding

Posted by Unknown , April 1, 2013 7:59 PM

It's been over a week and I've been procrastinating writing this post, but no matter how long I delay this I would still end up daydreaming about weddings. It was March 24, 2013, the sky was dim yet the sun seems to find its way through, the garden looks fantastic and people dressed so formal and classy. I was greeted by the groom, and the first thing I heard, and I quote "I never knew I'll be this nervous". I didn't quite understand why, but then I saw the bride, she was amazingly beautiful that day. As she was walking down the aisle, tears were streaming down her cheeks as she hold tightly the arms of her mom and dad, to accept the fact that to start a new chapter in her life begins by ending one. I thought I wouldn't cry, but there I was ruining my make-up. I made a quick peek at the groom, no wonder he was so nervous! The gravity of love and affection from the bride's parents are now on his shoulders. Though it can never be replaced, I know that he'll take care of my cousin (well he better be) and so it is to her as well.

I can't help it, and even during the wedding I was daydreaming... Since it's about love, I might as well write about it.

I've had this predicament for a while now whether to understand love as an emotional feeling or a conscious decision. First you fall in love, a passive and spontaneous feeling that happens to everyone of us, but what makes it difficult is to actually stay and be committed loving that same person, since this so-called feeling fades sooner or later, therefore love is a decision?
But then again, To say that it's a decision is to dilute its unique quality, it's rarity, because the thought implies that one can just fall in love with anyone, in the same way one decides to buy a cup of coffee or buy a new pair of jeans. Love requires a mixture of conscious action and serendipity, certain circumstances must arise, certain elements must fall into place. To say otherwise is to make love as mundance, well, as everything else. And love is anything but mundane.

During the wedding i realised that to keep loving a person, regardless if it's conscious or not lies within what they both strongly believe in. It's not much of myself to say this, but their faith in God is what will truly bind them together. The laws of man towards love is an exaggeraion of feeling either good or bad, but the latter is to understand that good will always be intertwined with the other. Where their inhibitions will turn into trust and fears will turn into comfort. We see people parade their love during occasions such as weddings, but rather this couple was simply grateful for it. We choose to be with someone for different reasons, more often than it should, it's usually for a wrong one. But this couple has taught me one thing, choose that person that will help you be a better person than you were. To be guided by God and continuously grow with that person and appreciate the blessings along the way.

Cheers to the newly wed! May you continue being a lighthouse of love and an epitome of happiness to hopeless romantics like myself. :) 

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My greatest blessing, a new beginning

Posted by Unknown , February 8, 2013 11:56 PM


"Being a young mom means i met you a little early, but it also means i get to love you a little longer. They said that my life ended when I decided to keep you, but it has just begun. You didn't take away my future, but gave me a better one."

At first it was a shock, especially for myself, i had sudden images of a different path i meant to go to, the thought of losing so much of my single independent life. I started to cry. Until i realize these arms that wrapped around me while i wept to let go, it was him, the father of my child, the person that helped my realize one important thing, his first few words lingered in my unconscious mind as i aimlessly still wonder what would happen next. I can't thank him enough for saying it.. "Never make baby feel like he/she's a burden, but a blessing"

I felt that God gave me this gift because i had an overflowing love and affection to give, I understand his message now. I undoubtedly knew that my friends would be happy for me, enough to trust the fact that my life has become better, that i am strong enough to be the best parent that i could be, and that i have the best partner to be the father of my baby. My friends knew well enough that though i may have lost a few, but i have gained a lot more. A bigger family between friends and my own, a blessing nonetheless than what others may have thought.

It hurts me much more until now to see that my very own family (except my parents) would pity me. That they would feel sorry for me, that i can never be happy and successful on my own now. Because of having a child means not being able to travel, to stop enjoying and will have problems with my career?  I do know more than anyone the sacrifices i have to make once i have my own family, but isn't that why we continue to live? To stop being selfish and start caring for something bigger than myself, i never said its gonna be easy, but i know that it would be worth it. 

I shed tears of happiness and excitement now. This new beginning is going to give me a bigger meaning to fight harder, strive higher and stand taller. Living here in Hong Kong has always felt like i was an outcast in my family, but now i have my own. I don't need to prove anything or to fear what others has to say. It doesn't matter now, I saw people that was happy for me and i thank God. I can't thank God enough for my parents that makes me laugh whenever i feel sad, my friends that would fly from different parts of the world just to support me, and my boyfriend that i so dearly love that gives me strength through all this, and I can't wait to see my little angel that brought happiness and love to my once hollow life. 






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