Life's appetite

Withered to dust

Posted by Unknown , March 17, 2012 8:15 AM

The sudden shock of a loud deafening ring, as i awoke half asleep from a dreamless night of an early 4:00 in the morning, work has never been a solitude of the life i live in, and yet i drag myself each and every passing day to earn, with no excuse to depend on others. I curse this feeling i have now, where comforting to madness is a saving grace to my broken heart, like a cupid's spell backfired with bows of torture. Surely I have anticipated pain in any course of love, but i was blown to this immense torment.I remember once quoted by Kahlil Gibran that "Love will Crucify you as much as it Crowns you", it seems that every memory lashes me and every hope thorns my very soul, for the pounding pain bleeds in a dust of withered love.

It all started last night, it was oddly dark as if illuminated light was not enough to shine upon anything,cold like the prick of snow shivers me, claustrophobic as if all the space i had was a prison cell. I was alone in bed scanning through my mobile when suddenly i came across my past love, then it started, a heavy invisible knife pierced through my heart after an image I accidentaly saw, the burn of flaming tears endlessly flow down my cheeks. I thought it was over, that I made myself proud to have moved on and hoped for a new love,to see myself with another like a childs fairytale of happy endings, but i thought wrong. They say 3 months would be quite enough for the pain to subside, it has been 1 year, 2 months and 11 days since my heart was broken into pieces and yet i still feel the same and even a little more from the hopes and dreams that maybe.. just maybe it would be ok again.

Please make it go away.. words i uttered from the moment it happened till now. The exhilirating feeling how it all begun and the excruciaiting pain of how it ended a year ago with the latter emotional anguish repeatedly happening at this very moment. I don't know really what else i would feel from now on, nevertheless, im already broken.. Again. I may be hurt but i hope he's happy, i really am. He came in my life to love me once but it was never meant for him to stay.


Someone Like You- Adele

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah